The nightmares came back again last night.  I was hopeful that the eight days since my last one meant they would stay gone this time.  Since the doc said I should start writing them down, I figure i'll keep track of them in my personal logs.  I don't know how much it will help though.  I don't think my mind has issues that I need to work out... I feel fine when i'm awake.  Anyway, here was my dream:

I am walking through a fairly hollow forest (a park or something) and I come across a tree with a heart carved into it.  Inside the heart it says Devon and Lynn.  Then the world flashes and every tree has a heart carved into it, each with a different girl's name beside mine.  Then the world flashes to an open meadow.  In the meadow, there are three men standing beside a pond.  The closest man turns to look at me, points, and then starts laughing.  The second man then turns, points at me, and starts crying.  The third man turns, points, and drops dead.  A fourth man who wasn't there before walks up to me and puts his hand on my shoulder.  The skin where he touched ripples and the ripple moves across my body like a wave in a pond.  When the ripple reaches my face, I wake up.

I don't really see what this dream means, but the whole time I was having it my heart was racing.  Throughout the dream I remember having this feeling like nothing was right in the world, like every decision was forgotten.

I was checking on the radiation levels coming from Spetty today and was unhappy to find them higher than normal and just barely below critical levels. I asked Joe to check the security login to see if anyone had started a run, but no one had. I then quickly reviewed the tapes of the control pod myself and found no one had been in there since Dr. Irral's run nine days ago. So either a software bug has been starting runs or Spetty is becoming unstable again.

I have reported this to Dr. Edric, but I haven't received any communication back from him. He probably isn't worried, as always. He isn't the one who has to spend most of his days inside The Heart thinking of all the weird ways Spetty could kill him. My crew is all pretty anxious over this, with the first wet run coming up, and I don't blame them.  If we can't stop these instabilities from occurring, even though they are occurring less and less, I don't think we should go through with the main run.  Unfortunately, it isn't up to me.

Devon Clyde, Lead Heart Tester